im trying to finish my research paper to have it checked my prof. i have a lollipop in my mouth and then i drooled on my shirt. i am SUCH a dorkface. i am hungry. im a sinner. im a saint. i do not feel ashamed.

im too busy to write anything but i just wanted to include what my friend tal thought of the show.

ddrdude99: on joe
ddrdude99: do they get married after this
ddrdude99: what did they just secretly say
ddrdude99: lilian dont look
ddrdude99: hes not wearing a shirt
Lil027: hahaha

ddrdude99: she is nice
ddrdude99: i like her
ddrdude99: him is stupid
ddrdude99: dont you hate when he talks
ddrdude99: i just stop listening

(on the one million dollar check)
ddrdude99: wtf
ddrdude99: how are they gonna split it
ddrdude99: they should rip it up
ddrdude99: that would be noble
ddrdude99: dude this is what i would do
ddrdude99: i would rip it up, and then say, no money in the world can buy me more happiness than zora has brought me
ddrdude99: hahaha
ddrdude99: cheeze
Lil027: OMG!
Lil027: SHE WOULD DUMP YOU RIGHT THEN AND THERE
ddrdude99: hahaha
ddrdude99: which once again shows girls are evil

how are you? i am fine. so i have oodles of work to do but i feel calm. i wish i could go to classes without getting any sort of grades. it would make me want to learn so much more. like i would write essays to impress my teacher how much i have learned and to make her/him feel like she/he really did teach me something. anyways, so i have to write a research paper and a french essay and another french essay for extra credit bc im slacking in that class all within two days but its ok! because college is for learning right? and learning is for pleasure right? RIGHT. definitely. i so agree. so i have a question for you. would you rather be loved or respected? v. interesting question huh? its a big toughie but in the end i think i would like to be loved. although im really not that sure. respect is awfully nice. and i would appreciate it more. and it's just more...fullfilling. he didnt really come up with a definite answer but i think jase came to the conclusion that he would rather be respected. i was reading the entries in my archives and it was amusing to read what i had wrote. i think i was one angry confused silly girl. not that im not one now. but i was more so before. i think it is a shame that my blogs will probably have disappeared by the time im 70 cuz thats what journals are for arent they? so you can read them for amusement later when you're senile and then you can hide it in a brick somewhere and your great grandchildren or whoever else can find it and read it and love you because of all the delicious and immaturish things you wrote about? i think so. anyways i must start on my crap so more later.

i have a confession to make: i think that i might switch to xanga.

i KNOW! thats so bad of me. im such a traitor. but i want to put up pictures! and i want to have people put comments on my thing! well, i havent finalized my decision yet because im so used to my poor sweet dear blog who i've been with for quite a long time.

oh yeah! haPPy valentines day my dearies!! i shall be spending today with bear-ona shopping ourselves silly (hopefully) and watching mr. christopher sing praise songs. i have to go take shower soon. im so happy my fridays are so easy - just one class that ends at 11 and then im free!!! yipee!! that rhymed! and we're not in anaheim! haha

anyways, im excited about going to new york even though i still havnt bought my ticket yet and i really do kinda want to stay at home and play with my amigos and amigas. sigh.

i dont have time to make a long entry today but hopefully ill write in here on a more regular basis. omg im so sorry my entries are so boring. i realize that i write about completely banal issues and make idiotic statements running around in my head. oh geez. damn me.

i have neglected you for v. long and i am muy sorry. hahaha im watching the osbournes and this is what happened: kelly kept spraying jack (brother's name?) with hairspray in his hair and his ear. and jack said "stop spraying my fuckin prada jacket!" kelly: "omg thats the most obnoxious thing i have ever heard you say! 'i could wipe my ass with your prada jacket' " jack: "i could wipe my ass with your face" OOOOOHHH isnt that a good comeback? i have to clean the room and myself and then start doing my homework. btw i think ozzy osbourne is v. cute in a silly way. anyway my mind feels a tad bit chaotic. i want to explain why but for one i dont what exactly what it is myself and then even if i did i dont think this is the right place. i <3 you dears. these are the words that describe my mood at this very moment: great massive confusion, 50% satisfaction with some things, and i dont know. im so superficial. ahh this entry is becoming really stupid and boring and filled with freakin nonsense.

i dont got nothin to say.

my books are not coming. im worried. i have a french quiz on friday and he says that the quizzes come directly from the book. dude i need to go read instead of playing online. see ya later alligators!

new year's goals: make 10 new friends (so we can mingle with jenn olivia and danielles 10 new friends), stay devoted to my blog, lose 15 pounds with J & O, study diligently and raise my suffering gpa, be a good daughter, be a good sister, be a good friend, be a good person, be a better christian, make everyone like me to death, save more money, stop snoring, read one non class required book a week, and i think thats it for now...oh btw the quote below is missing a word...it should be "people's relationships are quite mysterious, no one from the outside ever really understands what makes it work."

i hope you feel better mar.

i went shopping today! i opened a victoria's secret angel card~ ooh la la~ anyways i just wanted to write a quote that i read from the edge of reason: people's relationships are quite mysterious, no one from the outside ever really understands what makes work.

isnt that true?

oh frick i just read what i wrote and i have possibly the worst freakin grammar for an english major. james dean is looking down upon me when i sleep. someone convince me to go to church.

geez luiz puhleeze. im so sad my blog was erased. poooooo.im back at la! my lovely school theres about 5 people on the floor today though. i watched spiderman with kevin and james and i ate shin raemon but it tasted sorta yuck because the water was lukewarm. i watched lord of the rings finally. it was v. long. oh FRICK i explained this whole part about reading the sequel to bridget jone's diary - the edge of reason in my last blog and i DONT wanna write it again so i guess no one except those who've read it will know the funny parts except jason whom i pestered with the crazy funny sad life adventures of bridget. i dont wanna work i dont wanna work i dont wanna work.

everything i say is FANTASTIC
dont you agree?
dont you?
dont you?

i chopped off my hair. it short with no layers or v. little and highlighted and coated which you can hardly tell. traffic school was annoying as heck. i think i slept for about 2 hours. the guy didnt even say anything to me. it was like torture and at the end he started singing songs to us about obeying the law and this annoying guy behind me kept cursing and complaining and i wanted to smack him! jon cha came to eat lunch with me. there are so many jon/jonathans in the world but i dont blame their parents for naming them that because it means messenger of God. my mummy bought me stargazer lilies today but they all went LIMP and bent to the floor so i just took them out and am hanging them down from my bed post. boy oh boy am i exhausted or what. today the traffic school teacher was telling us about this sleep apnaea problem where people stop breathing while they sleep and they keep waking up because their brain cells tell them to start breathing and so they are constantly tired the whole day even though they were in bed for 8 hours and another sign is that they snore. that is why i think i have this sleep apnaea (sp?) disease. jason says that the only person i will marry is a deaf man because i snore. i apparently fell asleep one time while talking to him on the phone and he actually heard me snore! i am mortified and horrified because even dennis said i snore and even worse i snore really loud. i am just a little bit consoled because sandra bullocks snored like a maniac in two weeks notice and hugh grant still loved her to death at the end. of course it is just a movie but i can still hope right? i wish i could get a new job. this whole coffee business is getting boring to me. ok now i shall close here. good bye

OMG i freakin wrote a shitload of crap in here and right when i pressed post i lost my internet connection. i am FUMING angry.