hiiii blog!! im happy right now. i think its because my mom and my sister and i made and ate dinner and cleaned up together. i do believe that my mother is getting a little sad that im going to college. we had such fun together preparing dinner and then while linda and i were doing dishes my mumma was trying to show off her new salt and pepper bottles to us but she dropped the salt one and it went SPLAT! all over the kitchen floor right in the middle of her sentence and it was so hilarious. yup! we're going to magic mountain on friday so yayeee! even though i just went like last month and it wasnt as great as disneyland or anything. oh geez my mom just cut her finger on a piece of glass so i whipped out my first aid kit and bandaged it for her. wow....am i quick or what. i made cookies for people today!! and i delivered them all too. i think im such a saint. although the chocolate chip ones got a tad bit burnt. you guys still liked it right??????? grr* the answer better be yes!! dude i got my meningitis (sp??) shot today. sissy jason told me it would hurt a lot so i was being a big scaredy cat in front of the nurses but then they did it and it didnt hurt at all! what a baby he is huh?? im kinda bored now because almost everyone left and i wish classes would start soon. i think im gonna love my english class. and the seminar on ghost stories. :)!!!!!! right now im listening to foo fighters :: if everything could feel this real forever :: linda gave my sn to her friends and now i have all these weird girls IMing me. and they demand that i put her online. what little brats. goodbye.

alert!* i got a speeding ticket today. it was so sad. i was trying so hard not to get any tickets for at least 3 years and then i go and get one. and the whole thing turned out even worse because i was with my whole family and it happened to me like 3 minutes away from my house and my mom even told me to be careful because there were a lot of cops in that area. can you believe it? but i figured there was no use crying and whining about it to get out of it since grace and jamie did that and it didnt work for them so i just accepted my ticket with dignity. no one was mad at me so i just forgot about it and i am Calm now. so i read a room with a view today. it was super good and i like it a lot. i recommend it. i really wanna go shopping. and i have to go to magic mountain soon too. anyways theres nothing really dramatic enough in my life to write about and my brain seems a little empty. i only get in the mood to write a lot when im angry or sad or excited or etc. thats strange isnt. ill write more later

geeez high school was so fun and cheesy and dramatic. i thought of that today when someone was asking me for advice about LOVE. hah. right. love. so anyways i got a letter today from a guy from the ucla grace on campus organization. he wrote me this really long handwritten letter and it just said stuff like ucla is a secular school and you need to find shelter in the right ministry and etc. im wondering if i should join. this religion question is really beginning to disturb me in a major way. i feel this force drawing me towards God and bible and church but parts of me dont want to enter that stuff again. but when i find myself praying i feel like theres so many questions im confused about and like even praying doesnt clear anything up but it makes my confusion worse. i feel guilty when i ask for help with things or such because i never do anything but ask for help. basically my prayers are usually the same every day. i dont know whats stopping me from wholeheartedly giving into God. wow that sounded seriously wack.
moving on, i need to lose about 10 pounds pronto.
and get my pictures from a long time ago developed.
and go shopping
and buy a microwave and answering machine for college.

geez have i not written in here for forever or what? i thought that my blogs didnt work anymore but i checked it right now and i guess it does. my cousin from korea is staying with us for a couple days and hes sooo nice! he used to play with me when i was living korea. im trying to take him around and have fun and stuff but our house is in such desperate need of cleaning that my mom never lets us go out too much. all the rooms in our house are a different color! mine is lavendar and my sisters is buttercup and my aunts is sky blue and my parents is pale green. i only have 2 more weeks till college...im not too excited for it at the moment but i think i will be once i get settled in. my roomies called yesterday and they sound pretty nice. hey hey read this!!!

Life is tough.
It takes up a lot of your time, all your weekends,
and what do you get at the end of it?
...Death, a great reward.
I think the life cycle is all backwards.
You should die first, get it out of the way.
Then you should live twenty years in an old-age home.
You get kicked out when you're too young,
you get a gold watch, you go to work.
you work for forty years until you're
young enough to enjoy your retirement.
You go to college, you party until you're ready for high school,
you become a little kid, you play, you have no responsibilities,
you become a little boy or girl, you go back into the womb,
you spend your last nine months floating.
And you finish off as a gleam in someone's eye.
Norman Glass

isnt that pretty?? it was in chicken soup for the college soul. im rotting. someone come and take me away pleasee. i wanna join the peace corps. and marry frank sinatra and dean martin and join the mafia and climb mt. everest. i wanna go on a safari in africa and ride horseback across america witnessing battles between cowboys and indians. i wanna become a master plumber and a gourmet chef while getting a college education.
ok so no matter how many new screenames i get i cant seem to get away from my lil027 one. ive had that for like 5 years! i think its gonna be my sn for life man. ok im tired of writing.

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