ok so this is my third time writing in here today technically but the first one was from last night. yea so ive been seeing a lot of my old friends from long time ago lately. this is so it. like really, no more high school or being young and stupid and babied. i talked to mariana today and she seems to be doing well although a little sad. i think im gonna be sad my first couple days too. i picked up my pictures from costco today and they turned out so cute!! almost all of them; a couple of them turned out weird bc the picture was taken at the wrong time and then theres this one where i took a double shot with one film so it looks pretty funny. its a mixture of a picture when we were at jamies house and the other one is the one with me and marian at magic mountain sticking our faces out through those little cardboard cutouts with holes instead of the face. i have lots of things to finish up tomorrow like packing and buying last minute stuff returning my library books etc. oh. i wanna use my onbc backpack at la but its so dirty! im planning to wash it tomorrow but i hope it doesnt end up all wrinkly and gross and retarded by the time its clean. im going out in a couple minutes to say bye bye to friends from valencia. i hope oodles of people visit me and email me and phone me at la! really!! even if i dont talk to you that much anymore it would be really nice to converse once in a while. and im expecting letters from my f.b. every 2 weeks!!! oh my mom finally bought a new tv today. and i dont know why but i think she went a little spending crazy and bought a home theater system and a new dvd player. so i've pretty much decided Not to join a sorority from all the stuff that guy told me today and plus other stories but who knows? im still planning to check them out during rush week and might end up really loving it. ok im not going to have a computer at ucla for almost 2 weeks because i just ordered mine today. poopers. at least ill have to learn to live without one for a while. gotta jet now!

the weirdest thing happened today. i was cooking playing with my mummie and auntie at home when the doorbell rang and this guy was there selling magazines and i said sorry weve tried that and we dont like it too much and then the guy is like well anyways yea i just moved here and im looking for some things to do; do you know of any places? and im like ok you weirdo and i told him i was leaving for school on saturday and hes like what school and i said ucla and hes like no shit! i go there too. and then i went outside and i started talking to him for like 30 minutes and he was telling me all these crazy stories about ucla-ers and how they get drunk and do weed and theres parties every day. and he said that as long as i figure out the best method to study then getting good grades and partying will be nooooo problem. and also that freshmens have the most fun because its all so new and all the upperclassmen come up to them and just become friends and show them around the party scene and even though you dont do drugs or whatever everyone has so much fun. . so in conclusion you know how yesterday i was kinda wanting to go to ucsd with my friends?? welllll no longer!!!!! :) im getting majorly excited. i went to go eat brazilian barbeque today and it was soosososososoossoso gooooood!!!! and its such a fun place to eat. i hope i get to see jamie today before she leaves for sd. im gonna go visit them next week maybe with eunice. right ? ok be back in a bit

hullo darling journal. today was a day of many thoughts and events. yesterday and today the maid people caught me alone at home for the first time and i felt super awkward when they began doing the work. i felt so unbelievably spoiled and lazy and because i didnt have anything to do until they left i just sat around reading a book in the areas where they werent working and it became so weird to move everytime they came into the room that i was in. i mean i only 17 and these people were like my mumma's age. i felt so embarrassed. i dont think i can have maids when i grow up. and since i hate cleaning my house will just have to be a pigsty. marian and jason left today for sd. that was a little sad; but not really. mainly everyone already left so im used to this left behind feeling. i was thinking how fun it would have been to go to ucsd with nearly all my good friends from high school even sera and i told my mom that but she said its much better that im going to a school where all my friends arent going so i can make new friends and broaden my horizens and plus it would be more special to see my old friends during christmas break or something. which essentially is true. so im mighty pissed because i dropped off my film at costco on sunday and i go back today and i spend 10 minutes looking for it and finally i ask them if its there and they're like oh it'll be here by 6 pm but of course i forgot to go so now i have to go back tomorrow. what a hassle! im reading the biography of elizabeth taylor. she was soooo gorgeous when she was young. really, she was so perfect but she got extremely heavy and a little ugly. my mom and i talked so much today about everything. i told her many of my high school secrets and the things that shes been nagging me for. i think my moms such a teenager at heart. i love love love my n.e.r.d cd. its so good. my fave song is brain. my fave line - do i really even love you? / or do i really love your....brain. - i find that so true. brians is such a key factor in guys. oh i got another letter from a girl in a sorority today. thats like the 4th one. i was SO gung ho about joining one but now after everyone discouraging me im not so sure. like cathy asked me why i wanted to buy my friends and that girls get into parties for free anyways. lol thats so cathy. thats the general opinion expressed by nearly everyone and also my mom thinks that its some cult thing when i told her how we were sisters for life and stuff. but really, ive wanted to be in one since i was so little and this is the chance to do it. the only part that worries me is that i dont know if i want to be in a sorority for all 4 years. i feel like ill never meet anyone new or different who stays outside of the greek thing. so yea. thats a big dilemma. im pretty sure im gonna rush though. oh and i dont know if i should join an asian one or a regular one? thats another question. ahhh i still have a tad bit of time to decide. thats all for tonight.

this morning i woke my mom up at 4 so she could go to the mountain for her temple thing but then while im waking her up i fall asleep on her bed where my aunt is also sleeping and then my aunt starts hassling me to drive my mom there and im like NO i dont want to bc i hate going there and besides i already volunteered to take my mom but she refused and if my aunt wanted somone to drive my mom why didnt she do it??? i was soooo mad at my stupid aunt but eventually i felt so guily because i remembered all the times my mom dropped me off and picked me up so i just got up and drove her there. i can never decide if my aunt is a grown up or a kid. she acts so unbelievably selfish sometimes and im not just talking about today and normally im ok with it because shes more fun that way but then sometimes she acts like a big uptight bitch and orders me around like she is the mature adult. my mom says that shes like this because shes the youngest and always got away with everything. i guess thats the youngest child syndrome. anyways so i got home and we had guests over so we ate lunch and went shopping. my mom gave away our last tv so we went to go get a new one today but ended up not getting one because we couldnt decided if we wanted a big one or a medium sized one. so far that makes 3 tvs that my brilliant mother either broke or gave away; i dont understand! i got my microwave for dorm today but there were no cute answering machines that i wanted so i refrained. i went to jeffrey and jackie's house to watch a legally blonde..that movies so cute! ohh i bought the n.e.r.d. cd at best buy today for 9.99 and i was super excited because it was so cheap but then i go to target and its 8.99 and im a little irked because best buy guarantees the lowest price and on the receipt it says if you find the same product somewhere else for cheaper they'll give you the difference and so i wanted to go back for like a split second but then i thought against it because i mean its only a dollar and normally i couldnt care less but today it bothered me a tad bit but its just too late now bc im listening to it. tomorrow several of the troy gals and guys who havent left yet are eating breakfast at las brisas. that place is soo pretty! ok catch ya later!!

i finished rachels holiday at borders today. i havent been there to read in a while. it was nice to go back. there are lots of memories there...esp the yorba linda one. exactly one year ago everything began there. the drama. the friendships. of which several has lasted. im so happy for senior year. im very glad that i actually went out and made an effort to make new friends besides the people ive known since freshman summer school. oh marian got me a shot glass from alaska!! haha i wonder when i will ever use it? if ever i do. i've decided to abstain from drinking during college at least in the beginning. i think you gain more respect from other people despite those who pretend they are cooler than you are because they drink. well people who matter anyways will think so. not to mention SELF-respect. but theres also the question of social drinking?? or is that the same thing as party drinking? i dont think they are. i'll figure that out later. im not even that compatible with alcohol at least my body isnt. this journal thing is a little strange because its basically like im telling people what i think but i cant a lot of my innermost thoughts because of certain people or bc its just simply too personal. doesnt that defeat the purpose of a journal? but i can never keep up with a handwritten journal so i guess this is better than nothing. ok time to go take a shower. i didnt take one today! ewwww yes yes i know that sounds gross but its actually not very healthy to take one every day anyways so i dont care except that my hair itches! and then i feel quite disgusted. and thats how i feel at this moment so im gonna go take one now. toodles dahlins!